Week 7 – The DMP Recording
This week has been a long one. Productive, and very fruitful, but very long and very stressful. Staying positive while feeling the stresses of all our family was doing, all I was doing, was hard.
I fell down badly on the love thing. My default when I’m stressed is not introspection, or love; rather, my old blueprint makes me lash out. It’s a really old blueprint – from childhood – so it’s well-ingrained. There’s lots of work to be done.
This week we were to make a recording of ourselves reading our DMP and whatever else we wanted, to music. I was so excited, because for weeks I have enjoyed listening to Mark, Davene and Trish do the Master Key reading. Very often, it is the last thing I hear I fall asleep. I’ve been thinking that hearing my own voice would be super-powerful, so it was great to do the assignment. I got tingles when I heard my voice reading my movie trailer. Not that I had not been hearing myself reading it; rather, the recorded aspect of it was just an extra special touch for me. I used Claire de Lune as my background music, as that is one of my favorite pieces of classical music. In fact, it is one of the pieces my older daughter is playing next year for her recital.
I also laminated my movie posters. I made several copies as instructed, and one is in my Og book. Another is in my handbag, ready for me when I am out and about, and get impatient about something or someone.
This all is real work, but I can see some changes even as my old blueprint tries to exert its influence again.
I am back in the love groove. I take it one step at a time.